Lost!

The lil me.... has come up cuz twilight got scrwed up....I guess that's what happen.... one this perishes to give way to the other.... I mean my previous blog twilight, smethng wrng wid that luvly lil spce that i had for myself.... i can't access it nymore.... and this blogspot also looks so alien to me.... This is one of the many things that has changed in life evr since 14th july, 2008 or shud i say 22nd May, 2008.... That was the when I left the department and Chd and moved back home....apprehesive and excited about embarking on the career journey.... After two months o contemplation and a lot of unrest..... came 14ht july 2008...when i got on that flight which landed me in Pune.... I now I wonder why did i ever take that flgiht.... I mean yes, lot of people who know would say that this is the time I should be the happiest, cuz I'm doing what I always wanted.... I've finally mde a journo outta myself.... (n I'm quite happy about that people....no second thots abt dat evr!)...but but but...there is a life beyond it and doesn exist for me here.... and how i yearn and long to be myslef.... d wild n carefree me..... d me who cared too hoots abt evrythng....d me who ws so pre-occupuied wid relationships....d me who wrote as twilight for instnce.... dat me has becme lil me....d me who s shrinkin.... constantly and shrinkin in2 becomin jus a trainee journalist.... i mean 4 god's sake where is ARUSHI? and then the other day I was bombarded with this Question...How long do I intend to stay here? Once again, making a choice.... a choice between a job that gives a kick better than a cigratte's and a personal life that fulfils and completeas me!!!! Well, the day my loneliness and this sense of losing myslef grows on my love foe what I do, I'll pack my bags and leave!!!!! And that thought..... man.... it mre blissful than a orgasm! and thta brings me to a thought of 24th oct....whn m goin hme 2 a vacatn.....n dat does me lil gud....n despte fever, i feel alive n kickin!!!! And now it's tme 2 mke pages....so taada lil me, ill catch ya vry soon!!!! :)